Doubts

As anyone who has seen me knows, I'm no diet or weight loss expert. That may be why I'm having doubts about what's actually going on. It's been two weeks since I started my weight-loss-program thing and as of yesterday night, I have officially lost 4 kilos. Is that a good sign? I mean, at the rate I'm going, I expected to lose a bit more than that. I'm not sure if I'm being greedy (So anyone out there who knows better than me, please don't slap your forehead and make fun of me, please...) but I have no idea what is the rate a normal person loses weight.

Doubts are depressing... I've noticed that because I've been having a lot of doubts lately. I doubt if I can achieve my weight goal now. I doubt if I can sell my desktop to get my laptop. I even doubt if I am being the right role model for my brothers at the moment. Damn, I doubt so many more things than this. I know everyone has doubts and that there are so many more people out there that have it worse than me, but hell, this is my blog and it's my right to vent!

But, there is always a bright side to everything! Last night, after playing many games of squash with my dad, I made a discovery that has put me in a euphoric mood. I AM FIT! Or, at least, I am fitter than I was last time. After so many games, I did not feel tired or out of breath! As a fat-ish person, do you know how good that feels? To be able to do something that you were envious of in the past! Even if I didn't lose ANY weight, this perk, by itself, would have made the two weeks of suffering in the gym worth it!

So, with this new found motivation, my doubts about whether it's worth continuing my so called "Training Program" have vanished. Hopefully I will make more discoveries in the coming days that will wipe my other doubts away. For those of you who are a little bit slower, I'm trying to tell you NOT to give up even if you have doubts. Unless you are absolutely sure that what you are doing will cause harm or is completely pointless, don't lose heart!

No Surrender, FT out...